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"You can't just -"

John stops short as he takes in his new surroundings: this is not his flat. What the hell is -

Oh.

Oh god.

He closes the Door, slowly, and leans back against it, eyes closed as almost a year's worth of impossible memories flood into his head.

Oh god.

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"He leaves body parts everywhere and pitches fits when I bin them."

Which he doesn't do half as often as he should.

"I'm well within my rights."

"Entirely proportionate," he agrees. "And then some."

"Exactly," John says, almost serene with satisfaction.

He smiles crookedly.

"I still think Saxon was being a bit melodramatic about the universe," John says eventually.

Even if he was right about John and Sherlock finding each other. Even if that second set of memories is even more achingly lonely now John does know what he'd missed out on.

"The universe has not been conspiring to reunite Watson and I, that I've noticed."

"Your universe sounds a bit crap," John says, "no offense."

"None taken. You've really no idea."

"I am probably okay with that."

The waitrat returns, depositing paradoxes on the table. John brightens.

"I will do my best not to enlighten you," Strat reassures him.

"Cheers," John says. It is his considered opinion that if a Sherlock of any variety thinks some bit of information is best kept quiet, then it must be something incomprehensibly awful. That's good enough for John.

He takes a paradox and nudges the basket slightly toward Start to indicate that he is welcome to partake.

Naturally, he takes this as an invitation to raid the basket thoroughly.

He thinks how he would have reacted to that last time they met. Of course, he wouldn't have offered last time. Wouldn't have been able to bring himself to make the gesture.

Contrastingly, now his primary thought is to wish his Sherlock would take a hint like that more often.

He eats his paradox slowly, letting the smell soak into his skin.

Strat munches his way through several.

John finishes his and reaches for another. This one he dips in tartan sauce, just for added entertainment. It tastes exactly the way tartan really shouldn't.

"I got up the nerve to open my Door a couple days after we talked. There was nothing on the other side. I mean, literally nothing. I very nearly didn't go through."

"But you did," he murmurs.

"'Course I did," he says. "Walking out into nothingness beat the hell of finding Saxon on the other side."

His greatest fear had been discovering that, somehow, he wasn't dead at all.

Quietly: "I can see that."

His lips quirk into a slight smile of acknowledgment.

"Damned if I can tell you what happened next, though," he says. "One of those things the human mind is not built to retain, I suppose." His tone is a bit dry on that sentence; he knows how silly and 1950s sci-fi it sounds.

"But after that, things were all back to normal. I forgot everything, including Milliways."

"And then," he finishes, "you came back."

"And then I came back."

Well, a few things happened in the interim. Afghanistan. Sherlock.

But, yes - then he came back.

Strat can see them on him. The entire intervening year of—life, not merely overlaying but replacing what came before it. It's...

He realizes he is staring, and stops.

John is, by this juncture, not unaccustomed to being stared at by men called Sherlock. He doesn't react until Strat catches himself, at which point he raises an eyebrow, because men called Sherlock realizing on their own that staring is socially undesirable is rather more unusual.

He flickers a smile. "Sorry."

"Why?" he asks, genuinely interested in the answer.